I’m uninspired April 26, 2008

I wonder what this next year will bring, my desire for living in Italy has come back full force, there’s something about that place that makes me want to be there forever, I am trying to figure out how to make Ethiopian food if we live there, I think most of the ingredients that we would need we could find, there are some Ethiopians in Italy, the other question is what part of Italy would we want to live in, We are drawn to Rome and South, the language is probably the easiest for me language wise, I can read some Italian and speak some as well.
The problem is we know absolutely no one in Italy besides friends of friends.
This area is so beautiful as long as I never leave the house, I am content to be in this part of the country but as soon as I leave my refuge and venture out it makes me want to pack up and leave as soon as I can, there’s something about being back where you started that gives me this bad feeling, this area is almost completely uninspiring to me, there are things that I can find inspiration in but you really have to dig, Its hard to see them as being inspiring due to seeing them most of your life.
Inspirations, Rexville, mountains, our rock quarry, the lake, climbing the mountain near our home, The vitamin store, the sunsets, bel ham, our house, and land, lack of inspiration, not very many local friends, no cool stores, nothing to do, no restaurants , dull people, ugly buildings and yards, boring schools and, and uninspired people, mundane and middle america personalities, bad coffee, no night life, no where to walk that is cool, coming from La where we never tapped into all the cool things to do and people to meet is hard coming back home to where I grew up and seeing the same old same old.
I do love our church and our church family though, the Church is such a refuge.